marriage

best poem yet? yeah i think so. cried a lot for this one. enjoy the very best part of me, right here in font size 11.

as i walk

down the aisle,

right there

ready to marry the sun,

there’s a flurry of

blossom petals in my wake.

i’m watching

the sunset

and cleaning my face;

cleaning away and

purifying.

no more guilt,

no more shame,

no more.

have you ever cried

about it?

i watch my lover descend,

one more

moment,

one more breath of

sunshine.

there is a flash of light

and the sun is gone.

yet i am not in darkness

there is a ladybug

here with me -

he is named jim.

a deep breath

and i release

every weight.

i’ll be okay,

i realise.

i realise now,

i’ll be alright.

and i have begged

myself for forgiveness

long enough.

i shake

with tears and i

let it all go.

i let it roll

off my cheeks

into the melting sun

and watch it leave.

i let it all go.

i even stop blaming myself.

i even stop blaming myself.

who’s forgiveness could matter more?

i am merciful

and soft and

i do not deserve anything less

than myself.

tears catch

in my eyelashes.

how does it feel to let go?

to let it be?

how does it feel to take the old stitches out?

surrounded

by Angels in ladybugs,

and things that smell

nice,

i bridge back the gap

in myself and

hold every broken

heart within me.

promises

and secrets,

yet my own forgiveness

heals it all.