remember the movie?
hush breaths, lie
with me beside me
on clean bedsheets. let them be clean.
listen to the same songs as me.
walk through life.
learn to be 18 with me.
(it will take me a year; i will learn)
my tongue is numb, heavy in my mouth.
anticipate winter with me.
autumn morphs into winter like
i waited to be a woman.
i don’t know when the change is coming
but i trust i
will wake one morning
and grieve autumn,
miss the golden leaves
and october
and september
and promises and falling
in love,
just as i grieve 16.
for now, i make
plans for november. i
wonder when to expect snow.
i spend a lot
of time alone
learning early morning skies like
the back of my hand.
promising myself i’ll
not only spend time silent.
meet me in november,
i tell myself.
i feel i am reborn,
finding a new self a new girl
a new woman to love with my whole complete heart. a new
sense of complete.
meet me in november.
i have written you love letters
my lovely girl.
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